Memoirs

2009-12-09T09:05:00.000-08:00

time flies!
In next few months im graduating from high school
deciding on my future.
be independent.
somehow i just dont feel whole right now!
feel like something is missing..

2009-12-04T06:02:00.000-08:00

YIPEE!!! I'm addicted to f(x)!!!
Chu~ Chu~ Chu~ Muaks!
XD
And also La Cha Ta!!!
LOL
Anyway, my dad just cant stop lecturing for doing that insane Home Tuition.
Seriously I never like that program because that program sucks
It sucks the life of a teenager who can study
lol
Is so true!
www.scorea.com
This website sucks!
seriously is just freaking useless website!
Besides that, it eats up the parents' RM600 for a half a year
So not worth it!
Seriously I just don't bother about it
cuz although that program is for me
I never use it cuz is not mine!
So i don't give a damn about it!
~iOut

2009-12-02T01:17:00.000-08:00

I've been bottled some emotions that really got me contagious!
Exams, family, friends.
Common thing that teenagers faced everyday!
One more thing, I'm going to be a Senior next year.
Which means more assignments, more books to read and revise, more exercise!
No entertainments. Anyway, this is what I'll have to face.
My parents have seriously stepped beyond the borderline!
I have plan anything for some revising during holidays.
And what the hell is going is that my dad just suddenly sign me up for some stupid freaking Home Tuition thingy!
I mean i got my whole time fully booked and now with the Home Tuition going on and they even asked me to switch Physic tutor! I always way beyond shocked
So call good parents!
At first Im pretty satisfied with the life I have right now but NOOOO!!!!
My parents have to jump to line and messed everything up!
I just wish that they could at least see the real me who used to be satisfied with everything last time!
What a crap!
~iOut!

2009-08-30T07:31:00.000-07:00

Visiting MV Doulos for the 2nd time has give me a new perspective towards life n others..
It has make me realise that there's other people who needs things more than I do
And Ben giving Michele and I a tour around the inner ship has really woken the real me inside..
Other than that, it has teaches me that have faith for God is a very important thing, n by praying, reading the bible spark the flame inside me..
And by doing that, I have rearrange my Top 10 priorities .

1. God
2. Family
3. Friends
4. Education
5. Animals
6. Helping out
7. Sports
8.Books
9.Entertainment
10. Relaxing and Have Fun

2009-07-27T01:10:00.000-07:00

Mood swings??
Periods??
Menopause???
Yup, my mum is piss at me..cuz when i came back from school.. I was nearly snooze on the bed..
but that darn est project is driving me 2 wake up mode...
aarrghh!
get a grip!!!
I went back 2 archery a fews ago..
It was fun..
I do kinda miss the atmosphere of being around the people that I once knew
but then.. Im glad to be back 2 the range..
Life in form 4 was darn freaking hard..
it wasn't easy at all...
plus, with home chores, homework, dogs, sports, computer, studies, fictions n the list still goes on..
I cracking my brain for better time management but then that of brain of mine isn't functioning very well..is beyond repair....
haiz...I just wish I could go back 2 form 3..
where all the funs starts..yipee~~
~iOut

2009-06-26T20:55:00.000-07:00

performance..performance... every1 loves the stage..
hehe
I love the stage very much..
dancing, acting, stunts blah blah...
My sanctuary?? mayb..lolXD
anyway...now that finally performance is over!
I can focus my studies n prepare 4 next year SPM!!!

2009-06-16T08:06:00.000-07:00

My life now is under stress level
which is killing me now!!
dreading badly..seriously...
I mean now im stuck with insomnia n doing history notes like crazy
wtf??!!
now i got a pail of homeworks...needed 2 done..
shit!!
those teachers
especially practical teachers need 2 speak louder..or they can get their voice box check...
A better n wiser choice!
Seriously im looking 4ward of relaxing on weekend a bit...cuz i didnt get any enough sleep n that is already bad enough....
~iOut

2009-06-04T04:00:00.000-07:00

Summer holiday!!!!
yeah!!!
So-call mah!!
lol..
anyway..
Im in no relaxing mode..
just study..like hell!!!
but then..im dividing my time..computer, study, dance practice, n exercise ..
yup....but the..sure enough 2 occupied my time..
hehe
anyway..gtg...write more l8r!!
~iOut

2009-05-11T04:11:00.000-07:00

hey bloggy... sorry for ignoring u..
Midterm is off..And Im off the hook...
Seriously...
Now...
I dont feel like study.. but relax.
relax to work on my muscle...
yup...tone up my muscle...
This trainer rocks...
She is my role model..
Oh yeah!!

this trainer rocks..
Im working on my muscle..
getting rid of all the fats..
Gain muscle and Lose weight..
Diet plan??
is easy...

Breakfast
Wholemeal bread, Hard-boiled egg (without egg yolk) and water

Recess & Lunch
Sandwhich (cucumber, tomato and cheese) and water..

Dinner
Rice, Fish/Meat, Veggies and Water

the whole month of May and June??
Workout, Good Nutrition and Gain Muscles...

2009-04-22T07:01:00.000-07:00

I've been having nosebleed for the last few days..and it wasn't pleasant at all..
It stain on my clothes..duh!! those red gooey stuff!! I feel a bit dizzy after that..
but i managed to get a grip on myself for a few minutes..
My head is kinda heavy with this guy im crushing on floating around my head..
My love life? Here goes~
I know this guy like for a year..
And he is actually my senior..
We have something in common and I often tell him my problems..
U know..I wanna be there 4 him no matter what..
Just 2 support him..and be the good friend that anyone who can ask for..
But then..who the hell appreciate me then??
I dont wanna bother about that..
Move on with my life..
Now...there is like a huge gap between us..
And I feel kinda awkward of being around him..
The feeling is still there..
After I read something on his page,
I just dont feel like is worth falling for him..
I just wanna be the person, stay back from that spot..
hide in the shadows..
and never see each other's face anymore...
Turn around and move away..
Until HS is finished...
Goodbye..Good Luck..
~iOut

2009-04-18T06:35:00.001-07:00

seriously im have been ignoring u lately..sorry..
2day was suffocating...
the whole day with numbers..
ADD MATHS!!!
im not a fan of it..
but i have 2 do it cuz is compulsory
what the hell??!!!
seriously
Im addicted to a sitcom...The Nanny
lol...
I like that character...
haha
my mum have been confiscating my laptop away...
this is such a wreck!!
hate it!!
~iOut

2009-04-09T07:09:00.000-07:00

Last few days i have crapping around..of giving up dancing..
blah.blah..
deep down..i never ever wanna give up on it..
for sure..
Is just that some things always stop me from reaching my potential..
last few days blogging was like drinking 3 cans of Heineken
making me drunk....
hangover..
ok..weird...but then i just cant stand it..

Other than that, I just wanna get my life back..
school, dancing, my friends, everything...like 2008..
I miss 2008..T _ T
~iOut

2009-04-06T05:57:00.000-07:00

Dancing is a thing that i found it back into my life...
Now..is dying now...
the fun of it gone..
Seriously im going crazy...
Now...Im totally DONE!!!!
IM DONE WITH IT!!
Now i just wanna get back track on the things i love to do..
That is Music, Games and Sports..
I had enough!!!
I knew my limitations..
From earlier I knew my freestyle is limited..
For sure..
I cant do much cuz...I knew from beginning..Dancing is not my thing...
~iOut

2009-04-05T04:22:00.000-07:00

this morning..i woke up with a bad hair...
ya..other than that..
I had a fight with my mum..cuz im didnt go 2 church..
so she took my laptop n lock my astro channel..
NONONO!!!
but then i really dont bother..cuz i can survive through the morning..
hehe..
I done my add maths, biology n est...
seriously i just dont get it...
so much work 2 do...
plus i done my house chores...
blah!!!
play with my dogs 4 a few minutes..
now.. my mum n i r ok now..
she can be my friend n my sis...
I can tell her everything except my crushes..
duh!!
If she knew...
Of cuz she would avoid that topic...
No use talking that 1...
Anyway...gonna continue my accounts, moral n history....
~iOut

2009-04-04T04:20:00.000-07:00

bloggy..im so sorry 4 ignoring u..
I just cant seem 2 find the time 2 blog..
Last 2 weeks was a stress and worse weeks of my life..
I just went thru my PMS n started 2 snapped at every1 around me..
Im sorry 2 any1 that snapped at..
So sorry..
I probably should give a warning to them instead..

Form 4 life is not a relaxing year..
Homeworks, Assignments, Exams, Textbooks...
Is tons..
Science , ~~Art & Commerce~~...
is a good thing im science stream..
But
y cant they just give us abit relax...or something..
aarrrggghhhh!!!

My result for my 1st term:
BM = 57%
Eng = 90%
Maths = 73%
Add maths = 50%
History = 66%
Chemistry 55%
Biology = 23%
Physic = 8%
Accounts = 59%
EST = 68%
Moral = 43%

This 1st term test 4 my seniors are normal..
but 4 me..goes with the flow..but part of me is snapping at me
"get ur ass on the sit n hit the books !!!"
ok rude much??!!!
seriously i got 2 agree with my other side..

I miss playing volleyball very much..
seriously i wanna join the volleyball competition..
but then is conquer by my seniors..what else??
Same goes 2 dancing...
For me..
Wanna get into a crew??
not easy..
Deep down i wanna join the crew..
but then, they probably think
* who the hell r u?? N hell like we know u!!! As if u get the chance 2 join the crew for dancing!"*
this is what will happen..
That is y i dance in the shadows..

I wanna leave this stupid country ASAP!!!
is not even worth it 2 stay around..
~iOut

major headache...

2009-03-26T07:29:00.000-07:00

2much homework is not a good thing 4 me..
seriously....y the teachers r torturing u??!!!!
this ain't rite...
I havent done with my history, biology n accounts notes..
OMG!!!!
major heavy heads...
N some revision 4 midterm..
this year is like hell...
OMG!!!!
Headache!!!!
Got finish my assignments...
~iOut

Happy Life....Mayb......

2009-03-15T04:28:00.000-07:00

Ever think of anybody said 2 u... like..
'U lead a happy life....'
'U got a good life ahead of u..'
blah..blah..
Sometimes i get sick of hearing other people saying that 2 me...
Seriously....when I reminiscence my past....
I actually had a life which is the best...
And some other people dont have a good life or childhood like I do..
Like him, her....n others.....
I just wish everybody could have a good life instead...
Now im emo-ing...
haha...
~iOut

last day of exam...

2009-03-08T21:48:00.000-07:00

2morrow is the last day of exam..
EST, add maths n Acc...
Seriously all this subjects r pain the in ass...
How could that stupid school do this 2 the students....
Darn it....
I'm thinking a makeover on myself...
Skinny jeans???
Tank top??
Stiletto heels?
Wegde sandal heels??
Tone up body??
Mayb...
Tall me??? i wish!!!
~iOut

Music in the life...

2009-03-08T21:20:00.000-07:00

Im cruising thru 2 net searching some nice music...
i came across with my fav...song...Craig David - Fill Me In
Seriously this song rocks...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G1bTqfbXnZs

Personlaity traits

2009-03-04T03:56:00.002-08:00

Im the Janury-an...lol...which 1 is yours???

Personality traits by birth month

Personality traits for January Month

Ambitious and serious
Loves to teach and be taught
Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses
Likes to criticize
Hardworking and productive
Smart, neat and organized
Sensitive and has deep thoughts
Knows how to make others happy
Quiet unless excited or tensed
Rather reserved
Highly attentive
Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds
Romantic but has difficulties expressing love
Loves children
Homely person
Loyal
Needs to improve social abilities
Easily jealous

Personality traits for February Month

Abstract thoughts
Loves reality and abstract
Intelligent and clever
Changing personality
Temperamental
Quiet, shy and humble
Low self esteem
Honest and loyal
Determined to reach goals
Loves freedom
Rebellious when restricted
Loves aggressiveness
Too sensitive and easily hurt
Showing anger easily
Dislike unnecessary things
Loves making friends but rarely shows it
Daring and stubborn
Ambitious
Realizing dreams and hopes
Sharp
Loves entertainment and leisure
Romantic on the inside not outside

Personality traits for March Month

Attractive personality
Affectionate
Shy and reserved
Secretive
Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic
Loves peace and serenity
Sensitive to others
Loves to serve others
Not easily angered
Trustworthy
Appreciative and returns kindness
Observant and assess others
Revengeful
Loves to dream and fantasize
Loves traveling
Loves attention
Loves home decors
Musically talented
Loves special things
Moody

Personality traits for April Month

Active and dynamic
Decisive and hateful but tends to regret
Attractive and affectionate to oneself
Strong mentality
Loves attention
Diplomatic
Consoling
Friendly and solves people's problems
Brave and fearless
Adventurous
Loving and caring
Suave and generous
Emotional
Revengeful
Aggressive
Hasty
Good memory
Moving
Motivate oneself and the others
Sickness usually of the head and chest
Easily get too jealous

Personality traits for May Month

Stubborn and hard-hearted
Strong-willed and highly motivated
Sharp thoughts
Easily angered
Attracts others and loves attention
Deep feelings
Beautiful physically and mentally
Firm standpoint
Easily influenced
Needs no motivation
Easily consoled
Systematic (left brain)
Loves to dream
Strong clairvoyance
Understanding
Sickness usually in the ear and neck
Good imagination
Good debating skills
Good physical
Weak breathing
Loves literature and the arts
Loves traveling
High spirited
Spendthrift

Personality traits for June Month

Thinks far with vision
Easily influenced by kindness
Polite and soft-spoken
Having lots of ideas
Sensitive
Active mind
Hesitating
Tends to delay
Choosy and always wants the best
Temperamental
Funny and humorous
Loves to joke
Good debating skills
Talkative
Daydreamer
Friendly
Knows how to make friends
Abiding
Able to show character
Easily hurt
Prone to getting colds
Loves to dress up
Takes time to recover when hurt
Brand conscious
Executive
Stubborn
Those who loves me are enemies

Personality traits for July Month

Fun to be with
Secretive
Difficult to fathom and to be understood
Quiet unless excited or tensed
Takes pride in oneself
Has reputation
Easily consoled
Honest
Concern about people's feelings
Tactful
Friendly
Approachable
Very emotional
Temperamental and unpredictable
Moody and easily hurt
Witty and sarky
Sentimental
Not revengeful
Forgiving but never forgets
Dislike nonsensical and unnecessary things
Guides others physically and mentally
Sensitive and forms impressions carefully
Wary and sharp
Judge people through observations
Hardworking
No difficulties

Personality traits for August Month

Loves to joke
Attractive
Suave and caring
Brave and fearless
Firm and has leadership qualities
Knows how to console others
Too generous and egoistic
Takes high pride of oneself
Thirsty for praises
Extraordinary spirit
Easily angered
Angry when provoked
Easily jealous
Observant
Careful and cautious
Thinks quickly
Independent thoughts
Loves to lead and to be led
Loves to dream
Talented in the arts, music and defense
Sensitive but not petty
Poo! r resistance against illnesses
Loving and caring
Loves to make friends

Personality traits for September Month

Suave and compromising
Careful, cautious and organized
Likes to point out people's mistakes
Likes to criticize
Quiet but able to talk well
Calm and cool
Kind and sympathetic
Concerned and detailed
Trustworthy, loyal and honest
Does work well
Sensitive
Thinking
Good memory
Clever and knowledgeable
Loves to look for information
Must control oneself when criticizing
Able to motivate oneself
Understanding
Secretive
Loves sports, leisure and traveling
Hardly shows emotions
Tends to bottle up feelings

Personality traits for October Month

Loves to chat
Loves those who loves him
Loves to takes things at the centre
Attractive and suave
Inner and physical beauty
Does not lie or pretend
Sympathetic
Treats friends importantly
Always making friends
Easily hur! t but recovers easily
Bad tempered
Selfish
Seldom helps unless asked
Daydreamer
Very opinionated
Does not care of what others think
Emotional
Decisive
Strong clairvoyance
Loves to travel, the arts and literature
Soft-spoken, loving and caring
Romantic
Touchy and easily jealous
Spendthrift and easily influenced
Easily lose confidence

Personality traits for November Month

Has a lot of ideas
Difficult to fathom
Thinks forward
Unique and brilliant
Extraordinary ideas
Sharp thinking
Fine and strong clairvoyance
Can become good doctors
Careful and cautious
Dynamic in personality
Secretive
Inquisitive
Knows how to dig secrets
Always thinking
Less talkative but amiable
Brave and generous
Patient
Stubborn and hard-hearted
If there is a will, there is a way
Determined
Never give up
Hardly become angry unless provoked
Motivates oneself
Does not appreciates praises
High-spirited
Well-built and tough
Deep love

Personality traits for December Month

Loyal and generous
Patriotic
Active in games and interactions
Impatient and hasty
Ambitious
Influential in organizations
Fun to be with
Loves to socialize
Loves praises
Loves attention
Loves to be loved
Honest and trustworthy
Not pretending
Short tempered
Changing personality
Not egoistic
Takes high pride in oneself
Hates restrictions
Loves to joke
Good sense of humor
Good Logic

(source: http://www.indianhindunames.com/personality-traits-month.htm)

SHOCKED!!!

2009-03-03T03:27:00.000-08:00

Im officially laying on the bed....WHITE....FAINT...
Im officially OVERWEIGHT!!!
darn it...
My height 162cm...Weight 57kg....
officially fat....and OVERWEIGHT!!!
My mum just keep saying is my muscle which increasing my weight...
HELL not!!!!

I, Ivy Ng starting from 3 March 2009 will not eat anything during recess and lunch....

those food are just so tempting...
OUCH!!!!
I need cut down.....

I just want my original weight back...T.T
~iOut

School life...

2009-02-22T03:19:00.000-08:00

1st of all....Im not even happy at myself at all...
cuz of my mood swings...
I cant even start studying...
This is so insane...
cuz of PMS...
I dont even feel like doing anything related 2 school..
Plus I know last minute finishing assignments is a bad thing..
but then my PMS is the thing that stop me..
STUPID DAMN HORMONES!!!!
When is over...I'll be able fully concentrate n determine 2 study my way through...
Anyway.....Bakat Lok Yuk is coming up after 1st exam...
My friends keep pursuing me 2 audition...but I dont even like 2 join....
seriously I dont wanna make fool out of myself...
DARN IT!!!
~iOut..

i hate my day.....

2009-02-17T01:03:00.000-08:00

My day is got more 2 worse or better...
is more of less.....
anyway....Im bored...
1st exam is coming in 2 ways....
It is really creeping me out...
My mind is really focusing like insane...
Nosebleed yesterday...
Internal body temp just reach it's boiling point..
OUCH!!!!

Verse of the day....

2009-02-09T13:37:00.001-08:00

"Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me. For whosoever will save his life shall lose it: and whosoever will lose his life for my sake shall find it." Matthew 16:24-25

Random Post..

2009-02-09T03:38:00.000-08:00

I just copy, paste this from my facebook notes to use it as a post for today :P

Anyway, the rules are such that, once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you!

Tagged by Isabelle

1. I like to laid-back on the couch...watching movies...
2. I love my GSD's..they are big dogs...
3. I'm not a morning person..
4. I just like to listen to music...nobody where I go...even taking a bath in the bathroom...
5. I'm just happy in my class now..4S2..
6. I hate homework and study....
7. I swear A LOT.
8. I love DBSK & Taegoon...
9. I love to see hot guys.. ordinary hot guys...well some celebs..
10. I like READING....Full of modern romance....
11. I have temper...well....unless somebody triggered it...n that person have 2 prepare 2 run for his / her life...
12. I hate people who is bitching around...thinking themselves r all that...
13. I love dancing...modern dance...basic ballet...salsa dance...hip-hop...
14. I love branded stuff....but no $$...
15. I used to be tomboy....
16. I love sports...
17. I love playing games...(online, computer..blah, blah!!!)
18. Sometimes I love to be alone...(not emo~ing or something)
19. My hobbies are mainly sports, music and games...but still scouting for some new hobbies.
20. When I'm being a given a task, I will finish no matter what...
21. I don't like give up...
22. My fav color normally cool colors...but sometimes..I like hot colors....
23. I love surfing the net for hours....
24. I love reading stories on the new...www.fanfiction.net
25. I'm a sporty hip-hop type girl....

What I can say???I'm just full of randomness...n surprises...XP...
haha..
~iOut

2morrow school....

2009-02-01T05:17:00.000-08:00

CNY holiday pass so quick...
wow...
Im going back 2 school 2morrow..
So fast...
Gonna miss the holiday so much...
I didnt go bai nian or visit my relatives...
All i do is busy with CNY assignments and homeworks..
crazy...
well..at least it gives me time 2 finish b4 the teachers take my head off..
anyway....got 2 sleep..
~iOut..

Sports day...

2009-01-22T03:33:00.000-08:00

Ya..I wasn't prepare for it....
I got ligament sprain, thigh sprain...muscle cramps...
Hey No pain No gain...
Well, I didnt gain any medal...
haha...
But that phrase..will always in my heart..as a athlete...
I had my first sport event....
Triple Jump....
Seriously, a lot people think this is a hard sport....
and can give your foot a split ends...
seriously it can..
but I survived...
I end up get 4th place...
well...
at least my heart Blue House Marikh...won a gold medal for Girl Category A for triple jump..
Yeah for Marikh...
Next week is my sweet 16...
yeah!!!
on 1st day of CNY...
wow...
After CNY, my legs and lungs will burn and paralyze cuz I join long jump, 4x100 and 400M...
4th event is 4x400M...die...
but still unconfirmed...
wow.....
I hope I can win a medal for my blue house...
tomorrow is cross country...
Im running for my school and my Blue House...Yeah!!!
GO MARIKH...
LONG LIVE BLUE HOUSE!!!!!
~iOut

A week of non-stop stress....

2009-01-18T00:55:00.000-08:00

It has been weeks i didnt update my iBloggy.....which i like to call...haha..
is 2 random...i think....randomness.....I never get bored of that word...lol...
I have tons of assignments and homework....but yet i just got sick about studies....cuz of overload stressfulness....
What else??? Over Average soon-to-be-16-year-old teen is working her ass out of stressfulness...
Life is so unfair...
Seriously I miss talking to Nadine...her bubbly trait seriously got my attention away from my work...LOLXD...
Eloise has been blabber about Rob Pattinson..is nice to hear...but seriously I just wanna shut my ears to focus my work...
WoW....Im been too serious....
too FOCUS....
lol....anyway..soon i'll grow some white hair out...
NONONONONONO!!!!!!
seriously i miss my life as a form 3...
with all of my classmates....make noise together...study together....learn together....
FAMILY!!!!!

i miss my 'FAMILY' alot....
I just wish I could reverse the time....
HAIZ!!!!
From last year...I hung out and met a lot of new ppl...
They are like my guardian and advisor...
they ELOISE, NADINE, BRENDA, DANIEL, and others....
I really miss them....cuz they r not in same class...
But they always have a space in my hearts....
Rock on 4ever u guys!!!!
~iOut

Random...till can kill

2009-01-12T03:26:00.000-08:00

Listing all the talents I have....Yeah rite...

1. Singing???? ( off tune)
2. Dancing?? (No idea...Ever since I exposed my secret to my house mates last Friday, nothing was the same....)
3. Leadership??( Shit..Yeah rite... I cant take care of my self...a class of 40 people????No way...)
4. Writing??? (O.o...No way....)

I guess I'll just have keep finding it....
~c ya....

Pressure...

2009-01-07T00:48:00.000-08:00

Only a few days of school starts...and I started to feel the pressure of stress...
Cuz Im elected as a secretary and a committee member of decorating the class....
And Im doing a lot of stuff.....
other than that, my form teacher wanna elect me as class monitor...
I cant even take care of myself....Yet need to take care of 40 ppl in a class room....
This is a challenge I cant take...
No way...
Now these days a lot ppl from my class wanna switch classes...drop subjects...ya di ya da...
seriously, everything's not confirm....MEN!!!
at recess, I give Daniel a belated b'day present....
Is a VOODOO doll....lol...
Nad help me to choose...haha...is cute...
~c ya...

1st chapter of my 16 year old life....

2009-01-05T03:23:00.000-08:00

this early dawn I woke up...
I had my human minutes...haha....
then change into school uniform....
Had a toast, a cup of tea...
then, off to school....anyway....
i like the day...remind me of Twilight......
then we went straight to hall for some so-call special assembly...
can be boring abit...
feel like dying....
after assembly...
another so call form 4 assembly...
the principal speech seriously making sleepy....
then our form teacher came in....arranged our sit...
I sat at the back row...way back....beside the window...
hate it....even more....
but i make a request with my form teacher to change my sit...
same row but further away from the window...
still no help..
thx....alot ...hate it....hate it...
worse is that I got elected as a secretary and a comitee member of decorating the homeroom....
damn it....
Im busy this week....
then, recess....
after recess...biology....
it was ok...
but intro...was a normal thing...
nothing interesting.....
then add math...I taught we're having a friendly teacher...
yeah right...

is MS DAISY!!!!

the teacher who teach my class add math and also the school's most hated..i think....
she is the one who organize those free text books for the student....seriously, is killing me alright...
hate it...
anyway...now im thinking of my form 4 life...
is STUDY, HOMEWORK, ASSIGNMENTS, CURRICULUM ACTIVITIES...
No fun??? T.T...
well...need to adapt new life, new teachers and new subjects...what else???
~c ya...

form 4....

2009-01-04T05:09:00.000-08:00

my new chapter as a form 4 student starts in tomorrow...
how sweet is that..
a brand new chapter of me....
so far...
my only goal for now is get more closer to Father...
study for test and exams, and of course SPM...
I know I can do it....and make my parents proud...
Im the yougest and I got 2 more years of high school...
so I have to appreciate it more....
and I hope the form teacher can assign me a seat on the front row....
I pay full attention when Im at the front row...
Even better...
We're at a new block of homeroom...
so I think this year is going to be a fantastic school year...
and also a great sweet 16' for me...

A BRAND NEW CHAPTER OF MY LIFE AS A 16 year old average girl...

~c ya...

Science Stream....

2009-01-02T22:32:00.000-08:00

wow....I never believe I would go to science stream...seriously is a dream come true...
i got in2 4S2...wow..the 2nd best class in whole stream....
when i saw i got a B in science, I taught my chances of going to science stream will be low...
but thank God i did....God help me through this and I got it...
Through hard work and God blessing....these few days have been a great day for me...
I couldn't say any word...wow...anyway it was a miracle...
I accomplished my mission as a junior in high school and I make my parents proud...
Now I still more mission to go....Senior, SPM, prom (if there is prom) then graduation...
how sweet is that!!!
~c ya....

My new year resolution....

2009-01-01T20:46:00.000-08:00

Yo! tag some people for some new year resolution....
My new year resolution...

1. Work harder for SPM
2. Going to Korea with Rachel
3. Get in touch with Father

Best day of my life....

2009-01-01T20:31:00.000-08:00

These few days is the best day of my life...seriously it was awesome...
I got my PMR result......it was awesome.....
When I was in my car, I was having nervous wreck...
But when I got there, 5A's 2B's...how is that sound....
I was so happy....I was hyperactive again....
My old self....
My mum was so proud of me...
I didnt celebrate or anything...
I just wanna have a PSP...
but my mum definitely say no..
but who cares????
Im going to get one on my own anyway...
Next is new year,
Im so happy cuz im turning 16 in 25 days...
wow.....i still can wait....
lol....
anyway......i cant wait for my sophomore of high school...
yeah!!!!!
~c ya....

Sayonara 2008...

2008-12-28T07:20:00.000-08:00

Im kinda sad that 2008 is gonna gone in 3 days...wow...
time sure flies...
Im going to be 16 next month...
wow...sweet sixteen...
haha..
this Tuesday..is my PMR result coming out...
Im hectic nervous...n wanna crush that thing down..
I dont wanna look at my result...damn...
i have 2 ....
Im going 2 b form 4 next month...
wow...
n i just a got closet as my Xmas present from my dad...
haha....
Thank you for everything, 2008....
hello, 2009...

Random stuff...

2008-12-20T23:15:00.000-08:00

Rules & Regulations :

#1. Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
#2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
#3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.

back!--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

MY 10 WEIRD THINGS/HABITS/LITTLE KNOWN FACTS :
1. I used to bite my nails
2. I loved to look out from window..Imagine myself connect with the nature...
3. I loved sports...
4. I loved Twilight
5. I loved make up...not the cheeks part....
6. I like acting....
7. I like cooking....
8. I loved DBSK, fav member????Hero Jaejoong....Birthday partner.....
9. I loved SPONGEBOB.......
10. I loved having a school life....

Tag!
1. Fai!!
2. Tanya
3. Ian
4. Cammy
5. Natalia
6. Liyana
7. Garry
8. Joanna
9. Ivan Liaw
10. You! [anyone la]

dream

2008-12-20T22:58:00.000-08:00

I just woke up from my 2hr nap...
I felt strange & numb
I had 2 strange dreams...
There I was standing in front my grandpa's tombstone..
It is his death anniversary.
Then I sense him standing next to me...
I could see him...He wearing a white cloth wrap around his body.
My extended family was cleaning his tombstone and I was standing there doing nothing..
I keep holding back my tears from falling instead I feel something relaxing and cool arms wrapped around me.. I sense it..And I knew who's presence wrapping around me....
It was my grandpa....I look at him and he smile at me....
I wanna touch him but I couldn't reach him....
When he face turn around and look behind, there I saw Jesus, standing wrapped with magnificent clothes smiling at 2 of us...
Then I said to him in my heart...
'Jesus, thank you for bringing my grandpa to see me....Thank you very much..'
I am finally at peace because I get to see my grandpa before he went with Jesus into the blinded light....

2nd dream
My cousin and I were talking...about Technology...Lifes...other stuff...
My cousin and I are very close...
We help each other whenever we can...
Suddenly, I was standing at a mist....
My cousin's arms draped around me and said...
' I love you my cousin, you're like a baby sister to me..thank you for helping me through'
I was like stunt and surprise.....
Then , that was end of dream...

I wanna ask God about all this dream Im having...
Is weird...but I know it meant something....
~sayonara....

drama last rehearsal...

2008-12-18T07:59:00.000-08:00

tonight was the 1st time I saw Daniel Tan showing his appreciation to us...
sometimes his mood swings gives me the whiplash....
n is really a troublesome thing....plus is annoying...
me n the crew manage to get the whole scenes done..
seriously it was tough...now im heading a headache...
where is the painkiller when i need 1???
where did it go???
SHIT!!!
the pict ure of the drama...haha....

stressing out & tired

2008-12-17T05:54:00.000-08:00

today i was tired like insane cuz I went yam cha with my dad at old town..having coffee after 4 is major headache 4 me cuz i wont b able 2 sleep...mood swing suddenly giving me a whiplash..it was creepy..
i feel like slouching on m bed...close my eyes...imagining myself in Forks, WA...with the Twilight characters..haha....seriously is fun..
The church drama that my church is having now is actually my 1st drama in church...
next yr I'm confirm that I'll be joining the school drama....is fun and I get to increase my potential to become a veteran actress from Malaysia....one of my dream...
haha..I WISH!!!!
Now, im just waiting 4 PMR result, pass my driver's ed & start active in church...
I even thinking of changing church..CALVARY --> SKYLINE
seriously im earnestly to change church no matter what...
after all....rachel intro me and i met some new friends there...is fun..
haha....
got 2 check Rob Pattinson's interview on YouTube...
*droool*
~sayonara...

Schedule fully book...

2008-12-15T17:36:00.001-08:00

seriously..my schedule this week for X-mas already fully book...
wow...seriously, Im never been that busy unless Im a celeb of course...
How I wish I could have a acting career...seriously is hard..ain't easy..
That is why, I would like take part in alot of drama and theater production..
that is my dream...being a zoology is my 2nd dream...which my dad expose me 2...ok...
seriously i like acting a lot..
this week is about drama practice at church...props...
costume thingy....is hard...
Im get the supporting role for the 2nd time...And I think is cool...
If I could be the main character , that would be awesome...
haha...
~sayonara...

christmas around the corner....

2008-12-13T07:08:00.000-08:00

i always wanted to celebrate christmas with some friends & family..
but seriously, Im always in the mood for this festive season..so fun..
No vacation for me this year...just sit around, work, drama practice, christmas activities...other stuff...
today raining ..remind me about TWILIGHT...honestly...
the movie is good...
i like the story very much...
fall in love with mysterious good looking & hot vampire
who dont want...
every girls would die 4 it..haha...
Edward Cullen climbing a tree, superhuman speed & strength...nice...but in the movie..
a bit weird...anyway..that movie rocks...haha....
~sayonara

updating my life....

2008-11-22T09:28:00.000-08:00

Is been a long time i didnt my bloggie...
yup...
besides im relaxing my relaxing in my holidays...
Its not a big prob..
craze of DBSK....
haha...
i miss my friends alot...
the class party in pizza hut was the best class party ever...
the last day of my junior years..
in next 2 months, on Jan 26,
Im turning sixteen..
i'll be officially a teenager..
YEAH!!!!
haha...
& also on the same day...Chinese New Year....on that day..
YEAH!!!
unfortunately, i cant celebrate CNY cuz of my grandpa's death..
is ok..
but now i really miss the time of being together with him...
Is was long time ago..
but I know he is somewhere up there..happy & smiling...
& also on the same day...JaeJoong is turning 23..
yeah!!!!
haha...
how i wish i can celebrate a birthday with him...
Cassies are so going to anti me for this...
but cant help it...
I was lucky to born on the same day & month with him...
So???
dont blame & God...
is just like that..
~sayonara....

2months holiday..yeah...

2008-10-31T20:21:00.000-07:00

2dy is d 1st day of 2mnths holiday...
is was awesome..
now im tryin 2 lvl up ASAP...
tryin 2 get d flying thing...
seriously driving me nuts..
anyway....Michy's blog sure is interesting...
haha...
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yesterday..3AM1 won 9 hampers...
d most among all d form 3 classes...
haha...
It was awesome...
1 of d hampers r inside my room...
well kept..
unless Ian wanna eat it..
Ian is my big bro...
more lyk d biggest jerk ever...
but i k 4 him a lot...
no matter wat..sis & bro r 4ever...
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gtg...
~sayonara....

Activity After PMR....

2008-10-23T19:13:00.000-07:00

2day is sukaneka...

i hv no idea wat the heck is it...

anyway...

i jz came from d school hall...
nappig abt 50 mins...

regain my energy...

it was a good thing...

but then...im seperated from eloise...cuz she wants 2 go 2 d library...

but then is useless 2 drag her...

so...i came here.....

update my blog....

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im busy playing Perfect World...PW for short...

it was fun...

my werefox is lvl 21..

it was fun...

now

im goin...

d principal is calling us..

damn...

~sayonara...

PMR is history...freedom 4 us....

2008-10-17T04:31:00.000-07:00

is been a long time i didnt update my blig...
PMR is gone....& is freedom....
haha....What a happty life 4 me..
LOLXD....
2day...Went 2 sutera....
Bowling...Swimming...
Playing on beach...haha...
hv lunch there...
fancy place...
so expensive...
THX Michele...
haha....
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Really am tired now...
but Im determined 2 hv fun until dawn..
haha...
anyway....
LOLXD...
Stress is over...
fun jz begin...
haha....
LOLXD....cant wait 2 play my PW...
~sayonara....

PMR comin tis wk...

2008-10-04T00:30:00.001-07:00

im dead anyway...
PMR comin so fast...im still studyin...
science - started...
KH- started
Math - omost finish
Geo - omost finish
Sej - started
Malay - omost finish
English - omost finish
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I cant wait PMR 2 b.... finish...
I wanna spend my entire summer goin out...
hang out, working & playin my PW....
miss that game cuz tie limit...
havin technical problem l8ly....
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Raya jz over yesterdy...4 me...
haha...no open house invitation 2 anywer...
jz stay at home studyin .....
playin PW 4 an hr...
haha....
D damn security lock go me into troubled...
hate that lock...
gtg....bye...
~sayonara

So long didnt update my bloggie...

2008-09-22T00:40:00.000-07:00

It was a hard week for me..
not like a celebrity thing or something...
is just that big hectic PMR exam is coming in 3 wks...
im still preparing it...
but im just taking my break 4 a few minutes...
so might as well update my little babe here...
haha...
LOLX..
anyway...
2nd trial result came out...
mostly improve...
but im preparing 2 get more A's than i could ever expect...
just do my best...
haha...
anyway...
Mirotic MV is so rock...
YunHo look so hot...
My friend started 2 faint when they saw YunHo's skin...
I was like Ok...
haha......
but saw JaeJoong really rocks...
I mean that guy have the same birthday as me...normal stuff...
but through the years after his team debut...
They hotter & more handsome than ever...
WOW....
haha..
GALS Like BOYS....
LOLX...
their hormones are disrupting them like insane...
now...back 2 study...
~~Sayonara...

our dear cikgu molius....

2008-09-11T03:04:00.000-07:00

{my insanity for musiC}

cikgu molius pass away on 9 sept....
haiz...
he is da best olahraga teacher...
bside cikgu idrus...
i saw sum tears sheddin from cikgu idrus's eyes...
i think he take it very hard 2 lose a friend...
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GOD BLESS U cikgu...
TAKE K....
Dedicated 2 cikgu Molius...
Da best n famous olahraga teacher in Lok Yuk...
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da body was brought 2 skool..
2 let da student 2 pay their last respect on cikgu molius..
da funeral was held in fook look siew...
a lot ppl cried includin da teachers...
da male teachers took da hardest...
cuz they lose a good friend...
kesian them...
but all of us hv 2 move on...
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RIP
cikgu Molius...
God will take gud k of u...
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~~sayonara...

Volleyball tournament...

2008-09-05T03:58:00.000-07:00

finally get da chance 2 c daniel playin...
haha..
support him...
he play so well...
jz now volleyball tournament....
"da blue shirt gal"
lol...
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i can nvr relax when is game is on...
while im playin in it...
i 4get 2 hv fun...
instead i jz focus 2 win..
haha...
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haha....
daniel won his game...
hooray 4 him...
haha....
haha....
play volleyball wit alot of seniors...
trainin, soakin under rain then tournament...
so fun......
haha....
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dun 4get 2 study....
haha...
BM
Eng
Geo
His
KH
Science
Math
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~~sayonara.....

Sore throat...how 2 study????

2008-09-03T22:36:00.000-07:00

Jz hv sore throat 2day....

so painful..

lazy 2 talk...

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yet puasa...

half half lah..

lol...

i drink tons of cold water...

cold mint 2 cool down my throat...

none of them works lyk a charm...

wat stupid idea..

--------------------------------

Trial is nex wk....

i actually studyin in skool...

2 escape from my family...

i cant concetrate when they keep askin me 2 do sumthn..

so annoyin....

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History

Geo

English..

Math

living skill

science...

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haiz...

got 39 dys til PMR...

so fast...

oso hv 2 go thru it....

tough....

back 2 study...

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~~ sayonara....

Holiday 4 de last few days 4 merdeka..

2008-09-02T03:38:00.000-07:00

so long didn't blog cuz of merdeka...
n plus 16 sept holiday....
cuz is sabah's merdeka from british..
Yeah....
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being very tired l8ly...
gtg...
got 2 cook dinner..
do my homework...
study...
n no internet....

{NO mUsiC in Me}

hyperactive wit sports...

2008-08-29T06:34:00.001-07:00

2day..im so hyper with sports...
play badminton..volleyball...
running...joggin...haha...
Sports r my passion...
im goin 2 back 2 archery after PMR...
YEAH...
I miss tat place...
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anyway...
J & Daniel were playin badminton...
Daniel was best in volleyball...
not mention..badminton 2...
wow...
haha...
me??
sports r my passion 4ever...
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ms youvillea said i got slimmer...
wow...
get sick better 2 get slim...
lol...
no way...
exercise better....haha...
stay fit & slim...
Brenda said im hv more muscle than fats...
ok...
dun knw..
tats a good compliment...
haha..
thx Brenda...lol....
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2day went 2 volleyball court 2 support my frentz...
haha...
support them..
they rock...
haha...
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english was so funny...
we were supposed 2 make a reka cipta thing out recycle stuff...lol...
we make de hybrid twin tower lyk crap...
even my teacher freak out...
lol...
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so sleepy got 2 sleep.
~sayonara...

2day..G.N.O...at theater..lol...

2008-08-28T01:46:00.003-07:00

2nite wil be onli girls goin 2 c de drama at Institute Teacher Training College...
wat a treat...
everybody is wearin their casual outfits...
wow....
i hope is goin 2 b a great nite...
gtg prepare my beauty treatment..
haha..
XD...

2day..G.N.O...at theater..

2008-08-28T01:46:00.000-07:00

2day study...no distraction allow...

2008-08-27T03:40:00.000-07:00

2day i woke up with muscle cramp all over my bod...
no pain no gain...
lol....
haha....
i love all de sports tat can work on my muscle...
tats y...
anyway...
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dun feel lyk talkin 2 daniel...
talkin abt friendship??
lame...
worse...alone...
*Friends come & go*
This phrase has been buried deep inside my heart 4 long tym...
the key 2 unlock it is missin...
no key...
live thru my whole life wit tis phrase..
who wil i trust bside God??
.....nvm...
i live my whole life...
being anti -social..
loner's life...
tats wat i adapt 4...
all i hv now is nth...
haiz..
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so nth came so leave jz de way it is...
back 2 study...

Badminton tournament...

2008-08-27T02:48:00.000-07:00

yesterday i l8 blog..
cuz 2 tired...
now i got 5 min...
haha...
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it was kinda ok...
cant say is great or worse...
haha...
lessons totally brought me 2 sleep...
i sleep 4 de whole day...
haha...
cuz no teacher around...
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after tat... i stay back 2 join de badminton tournament...
it was kinda hard
I lose on both games..
so quarter finals 4 me..
i play single match wit my opponents...
n oso my frent...
i never get easy on her..
so i won 1st round..
but she won st8 set...
other than that...
i receive injuries..
as usual...but i heal fast..
haha..
ligament sprain, knee layer kena scrap off...
n numb from my ass 2 de foot...
i onliu can limp...
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so i juz rest 4 15 min...b4 str8 2 double match...
my partner was kinda hard on de front..
im gud at chatchin de back...
so i stand at de back..
it was kinda hard...
daniel was watchin us play...
i got nth 2 say...
so i jz keep it normal...
after match...
he compliment me i play ok...
but 2 me...
it was de worse day of my life...
cuz i cant win any match...
due to my injuries...
ouch...
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so i jz tumpang my frent's car go back home...
haha...
it was tired day...
so i got nth 2 say...
haha...
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my mum came back on tat nite...
she brought me alot of present...
a new version of converse shoe..
brown...
n levis shirts...
T-shirts..
aaaaaaaahhhhh...
so nyc....
haha....
n new watch...
luv de style..
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back 2 study...
haha...
da

Holiday jz over...

2008-08-25T02:00:00.000-07:00

Gonna miss holiday soon...
still hv a month more til' PMR...
no more stayin back at skool..
after finish PMR...
happy here & & there...
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Im startin my subjs 4 2nd trial & PMR..
gotta do better...
dancin & other stuff put at other side 1st....
anyway...
jz hv 2 study lyk mad...
bring everythin inside 2 my brain..
haha...
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i knw i can ace my PMR...
i knw i can do it...
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1 wk more til trial
& 40++ days..
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Retarded day...

2008-08-21T02:04:00.000-07:00

im playin com 4 de whole day..
but yet
oso got study...
is not lyk i didn't study at all...
haha...
anyway....watchin de condor hero...
so miss tat show...
haha...
got 2 cook dinner..
gtg...

sick...sick...sick...

2008-08-19T02:20:00.000-07:00

2day im sick lyk mad...
i got stupid ulser in my mouth..not 1 but 2...
ouch...
n my stomach feel bloated & my body temp. is unstable...
ouch...
I didn't eat anything de whole day...
cuz no appetite 2 eat...
haha...
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i went home early 2day cuz i cant stand it...
ive been yawnin alot...
n lazy 2 do anything else...
heavy headache...
make me wanna do sleep...so badly...
cant stand it...
haiz....
n plus saw daniel...
wan me 2 go home straight n rest...
how sweet of him...
but not enuf 2 convinced me 2 go home...
anyway...
i lose de 'battle'
haiz...
i'll get u 4 tis, daniel...
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after a good afternoon nap...
i feelin better...
but my body temp. is a bit unstable...
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from now on...
i got a phobia towards porridge...
cuz tat thing make me sick...
lyk mad...
gave me all those stupid symptoms...
shit...
cant blieve...
haiz...
--------------------------------
cant blieve he cut his hair...
cammy & i were shocked...
n said him not leng anymore...
grow back ur hair la, daniel.....
haha...
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now im feelin better...
2molo...
make sure im not sick anymore...
or else...
~sayonara...
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3 more weks trial 2...
& 56 days til PMR....

Report card day...sucks....

2008-08-16T06:25:00.000-07:00

2day...i receive a heavy lecture form my dad...
so not good...
so bad...
startin now on...
he so goin 2 take away my laptop...
NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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report card results....1st trial...
English ---- B
Malay ---- C
Science -----C
Geo ---- C
KH ----D
Math ----D
History --- C
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Ms snow white aka Ms Mary Kwong said Im 2 emotional sometimes...
& can b impulsive sometimes...
Temper owes controlled me...
my mind & my heart was distracted so greatly
tat i can even focus on my subj...
so bad...
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saw floyd while i was walkin wit my dog...
he wouldn't come near...
cuz he thinks donna will bite him..
donna now is very old...
sooner of l8r...she'll die...
i dun wan 2 lose her...
T_T...
Floyd can b a scary cat sometimes...
unfornately donna dun chase cats..
she chase mouse..
haha...
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well...
back 2 math...
l8r on9 game..
haha....

unofficial ceremony on kemerdekaan...haha...

2008-08-15T03:57:00.000-07:00

2day i stay back 2 watch daniel, floyd, azhar & kamal dancing...
all abt poping...
haha...
kinda nice...
but de damn PA cut de music off...
so didn't put
immature form 1 & 2 jz gave them so bullshit...
HAIZ...
H8 them...
so immature...
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didn't c lia, cammy or mich...
kinda miss them...
haiz...
after skool...
went 2 c daniel...
haha...
dancing...
lyk mad...
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After de performance, daniel, kamal & i went 2 galeri juara 2 avoid toi shui....
kamal got frentz so me & daniel went out 2gether...
haha....
so i got no problem wit everything....
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after daniel went back home...
i talk 2 floyd de first tym...
Both of us shock tat we live near...
in the same house area...
haha....
so kebetulan 1...
haha.......
he ask me abt their dance...
I encourage them 2 think negative...
i know they cud do better...
cuz...
they r lok yuk dancing them...
who ever compete them in our own skool...
i mean wit other students...
their specialty???
poping...krumping...wave....shuffle...C-walk...& alot...
they rock...
.....
haha....
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floyd ask me did i ever dance...
i asnwer him by provin him a inclined wave...
haha...
SHOCKED!!!
Performance???
once...
iz de church cuteness dancing..
lame...
so lame...
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who taught me??
daniel lah...
he rocks...
haha...
but opinion from floyd...
lyk daniel's wave kena paksa...
ok...
big compliment...
but is lyk tat...
ok...
got 2 on9 4 perfect world...
prepare 2 level up..
haha....

Open ceremony of kemerdekaan....haha...

2008-08-14T21:05:00.000-07:00

2day i dun hv lessons...

so my class & i went 2 dewan 2 celebr8 it...

it was fun...

everybody was singin lyk mad...

I join in....

haha....

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2day, garry & his team rock de stage wit de seni budaya club...

they modified de dance....

it was way better than de one borneo dance performance...

I shud hv record it better...

haha...

*SIGH*

miss it....

but anyway....

jz enjoy de dance...

haha...

swbni budaya...

seriously is graceful...

haha...

I love dancing...

ballroom,hip-hop....

& tons more...

except prima ballerina....

EEEEWWWWWW!!!!!!

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Step Up 2 The streets...

totally rock my world...

full of dancin.....

passionate abt it...

haha....

didin't c cammy 2day...

mayb come l8....

haha....

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now im listenin 2 koda kumi & tohoshinki (TVXQ)

LAST ANGEL....

They all so good...

so nice...

so rock...

suitable 4 dancin...

All I blog here is abt dancin...

only...

haha...

bloogin now in skool.......

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l8r head straight 2 dewan....

praticing....

dancing...

jz oredi complete quarter part of de dance...

Hv 2 figure some style in2 it....

tryin 2 crack my head lyk a humpty dumpty...

haha....

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2day fastin...

not on diet...

jz dun feel lyk eatin haha...

but thirsty...

haha...Lol....

GTG....

LIST 2 do 2nite....

- log in 2 perfect world 2 play party with queenie & yap....

- download Koda Kumi - Last Angel ft. TVXQ....

- pratice some dance moves...

- watch some dance moves on youtube....

-completely studyin 2molo...

-haha....

-laugh all de way....

Im so hyper now...
tyoin lyk mad....

only type abt 15 min on blog while listen 2 songs...

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CRAP!!!! 2molo is report card day wit parents...

I h8 parents-teachers conference...

it jz gives me de headache...

but anyway....

im ready 2 b lecture by my dad...

or my family...

they will take my laptop away....

NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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anyway... i can live without laptop...

after PMR....

on9 game 24/7

who k's...

cuz PMR wil b over by then...

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!!

~~~Sayonara...

Sivik Expo...

2008-08-13T23:50:00.000-07:00

Ouch...my ligament....jz give me a stupid pain...
I cant properly..
only can limping...
so hard 2 walk...
no dancin....

so jz lyk..that...
haha...
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but anyway...
i was able 2 do wave...
as usual...
taught my expert village..
they're good...
anyway...
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2day is sivik expo...
so nice...
eloise & i did sell some chinese food...
not until 30 min...
oredi finish selling..
ASTAGAH...
haha...
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now im hungry...
at least i can grab something 2 eat....
haha...

got 2 help nadine print some test papers...
PMR...
haha....

Tireness & Studyin...

2008-08-13T01:15:00.000-07:00

2day....I wish i could i go & watch Garry & de team dancing...
I'm a fan of them...
haha....
lol...
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I jz figure a dance routine...
nth much..
it was a continue...
of my last routine...
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& oso studyin...
I 've been studyin de past few days...
so i'll back 2 study l8r...
anyway...
now...
restin..
tryin 2 learn some new dance....
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2day i fall asleep in de classroom..
while teacher is teaching...
4 periods straight...
dun noe y...
mayb...
not enuf sleep.....

stress ...
headache....
AAARRRRRGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!
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gt study...
haha..
~sayonara....

feel left out....didn't do anything much....

2008-08-11T22:34:00.001-07:00

I stay back at skool...

doin my malay assingment...

oredi pass up 2 teacher...

I know i was de first 1 2 pass up...

haha...

feel so much better after a nice long sleep...

i mean at nite...

n blog in skool...

haha...

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eleanor didn't annoy me...

haha...

glad 2 c tat....

obvious...

haha...

currently i dun think much abt hving a bf or something lyk tat...

Making friends.... is wat i did...

but anyway....i got some close friends...

compare it 2 my primary skool life...

it much better...haha...

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i jz figure my own dance moves....

i was goin 2 show it 2 daniel...

but anyway...

it wasn't worth it...

cuz isn't stylish....

iz jz a basic...

nth much...

so i might as well....

continue wat i do best...

haha....

tats y i do...

nth much...

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gtg

~sayonara...

.......

ZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..........................

Tired...Pissed & Mad lyk a Berserker....

2008-08-11T22:21:00.000-07:00

Supposingly 2 post it yesterday....but playin perfect world alone...

haha...

Queenie & Yap didn't on9....

so i hv 2 do mission alone...

no choice...

play lyk 1 hour 30 min on perfect world... tryin 2 complete my mission...

so....

play lyk alone...

n play safe...

Ian is going 2 kill me if he finds out...

but nvr mind...

I got my backup...

lyk hell ya he can break in2 m,y system...

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B4 P&K....Eleanor...

Aunty Eleanor annoy me lyk I wanna use de chainsaw 2 slaughter her...

she juz cant stop....

so h8 her...

I wanna use every of my fibre being 2 get a peace on my own...

nex saw daniel cheng...

they r praticin 4 tis wk Kemerdekaan open ceremony...

so i didn't talk 2 him much...

kinda feel left out...

cuz no new dances moves was shared...

haha...

but *sigh*

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nex thing...i went back home & Ian pissing me lyk mad...

i feel so determined 2 slap him...

AAAARRRRGGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!

he is so annoyin lyk de another Ian in my class...

so thats y i rather.... stay inside my room

learn some dance moves instead arguin wit him...

he jz cant let it go...

h8 himm

shit...

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but end up...

i plot my revenge...(will get him l8r)

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at nite...

i print some test models papers...(GEO)

test my skills...

but i got a solid B on it...

but im ok wit it...

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haha.....

gtg...

In church lyk sleepy & bored....

2008-08-10T04:30:00.000-07:00

well...my bro turn 19 2day...
Fun 4 him..
Bored 4 me...
i surf de net lyk until 3am..
haha..
play perfect world...
2molo is math & geo....
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so fun..
secretly went 2 KFC with Esther Wong & Amandas...
haha...
We talk abt fashion, boys, education....
it was ok...
2molo got P&K...
at Daniel Cheng's classroom....
Wasn't a good thing cuz a lot creppy crawlis...
crawling here & there...
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2molo is de last day of excel..
MUAAHHHHHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!....
got 2 study geo...
l8 nite again...
haha......
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geo & math....
~~~~~~~~
Sayonara....

my bro's birthday dinner...

2008-08-09T10:12:00.000-07:00

2nite was Ian's birthday...My bro..
haha....
my family & i dine out...
my parents order alot of food...
We finish lyk mad...
When i almost finish my dinner,
i hear somebody sing happy birthday song....
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my memories of grandpa & me reflected back again...
tis tym i cud't hold on any longer...
I wanna cry so badly...
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last few months wasn't a good thing 4 me...
I hold a grudge on GOD after my grandpa die...
I dun feel lyk goin 2 church anymore...
but now....
im goin 2 church...
YOUTH....
I feel lyk i dun blong there....
seriously...dun mean 2 insult de CYA...
seriously....
i dun blong there...
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heard tis phrase a lot of tym...
"Friends comes & go"
seriously...
alot of my so called stupid friends...
juz 4get abt me...
lyk hell ya they k abt me...
Stupid...
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now...
im close with a few of my classmatels....
normal friends lyk cammy, lia, mich, daniel n others.....
& some other form 4 & form 5...
i feel so idiotic 4 trustin anybody else...
when im in primary skool...
talk abt true, everlasting friendship...
tis all bullshyt...
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crap....
play perfect world...trap inside a arena cant get out...
OH NO...
2molo is excel..
last day...
math & geo...
study lyk mad...
crazy...
haha...
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gt sleep...
ZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....................................

Try 2 install perfect world...

2008-08-09T00:35:00.000-07:00

haha....
Playing online game now....
Recommend by queenie & yap...
still waitin 2 b install...
haha....
gtg....
ON9 perfect world...
SO PERFECT WORLD...
NOT!!!!!
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celebr8 ian's birthday (my bro)...
10/8/2008
haha...
but celebr8 early...
haha...

1st time 'cybercafe' in school....

2008-08-07T23:18:00.000-07:00

Well, 1st time is kinda nice 2 suft some web in skool...

guess not so bad at all in our skool....

But anyway....

2day excel is kinda tough.....

scince paper 2 really stress me out....

Not mention....

I got panda eyes.....

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Tech is really getting in my life...

cant live without lyk music....

kinda rock.....

well....

nex wk is math & geo....got 2 days 2 study....

not so bad at all....

Checking my friendster now....

haha.....

blogging lyk mad...

HAHA.....

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gtg....my friend is calling me....

~sayonara....

Pissed abt results.....

2008-08-06T23:19:00.000-07:00

I nvr felt so pissed in my entire life....

I study as hard as I could....

2 score more A's on my 7 subjects....
i got mostly C's & D's n of cuz B's in my result...
Yet....at de sametime....I was determined 2 do better....
a lot of better....
Some pple says humans hv limitation...
but actually they r wrong....
Humans don't hv limitation....
Is their heart & mind set them on more beyond their limit....
but anyway....
I know I will b de 1 2 set beyond my limit....
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7 subjects 2 tackle:
Malay...
English.....
Math....
Science....
History....
Geography....
Living Skill....
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I know i can set it beyond my limitation.....
cuz im myself....
I know i can do it!!!!
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study hard....study smart.....
~Sayonara.....

2day...Motivation camp at Dewan MAKSAK...

2008-08-06T05:00:00.000-07:00

Nvr felt so interestin in my life.....
The speaker.....knows how 2 make jokes....
Hope the others...can enjoy as much I as do...
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Kena call out a few times.....Toi shui shj.....
But is worth it....
These objectives.....can help me in PMR...
alot.....
But i rather do it alone.....
Cuz i can study better when im alone...
im use 2 being alone by myself...
not being emo here...
but iz tru....
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talk 2 my friends 4 awhile b4 the speaker starts the seminar....
they all bring phone...while i didn't ...
T_T....
anyway....lia gone hyper again.....
didn't c cammy anywer....
miss u cammy....
haha.....
2molo is living skilll...
got 2 study...
but at de same time....
flunk that test...
haha....
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2molo form 4 hvin their motivation camp at de same venue....
haha...
hope they enjoy...
or they'll bcome anti.....
almost everything...
haha....
gtg....
study living skill now....
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Sayonara....

2nd day of trial......no fun......

2008-08-05T00:19:00.000-07:00

2day im hvin suppose 2 be 3 papers....English, Islam & Chinese...
Im only sittin 4 english....
Cuz Im not Islam....Drop...
I ditch Chinese when I was form 2....
Who cares..
but i feel kesian 4 those who take chinese & Islam....
I was revising my living skill....
Im weak at that subj....
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This morning....I went 2 Daniel's class...In the new block....
He was so blur yet shocked....
n oso cute....
as a friends....
I pass de pendrive 2 him.....
Inside contain all de song he need 2 practice...
4 dancing...so evil...
I hv not enuf tym 2 practice any dance move...
but anyway i could pratice after skool or after PMR......
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I wrote de english papers abt 1000 over words.....
Wow...the longest i ever written....
2molo my skool is hosting a motivation camp...
I think we're goin 2molo...
juz go only....haha......
Can't bring any phone 2molo...
Operation phone checkin 2molo...
goin 2 miss ur little buddy.....
haha.....
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lazy 2 study now....
watch some cool DBSK MV.....
Lyk HERO JAEJOONG...
same birthday....
My love...
drooooooooooooollllllllllll....
haha.....

Streamyx prob....cant blog...haiz....

2008-08-04T03:17:00.000-07:00

Is been days i didn't log in 2 my bloggy....
I h8 my connection...
Trial juz finish a few days ago....
Now 1st of Excel...
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I cant blieve Malay paper 2 can b tat hard....
juz h8 it a lot.....
Mr idros....lyk toi shui...only....
stupid...
shit....
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2day....I woke up at 2 juz 2 study de stupid freakin history...
lyk so tired....
Haiz......
Chat with Daniel after extra class...
haha......
Teach some Chris Brown's 4ever dance moves...
Im still blur ni....
HAIZ......
But anyway....
I hv a lot of fun...
haha....
2molo only english....
but other classes...Islam & chinese...
HAIZ....4 them....
gtg...
study novel....
while dancing...
haha.....
freaking dancing girl....
haha....

2day....3rd day trial...

2008-07-28T23:15:00.000-07:00

2day was ok.....
Trial...really got me in2 sleepless n8...
no kidding...
But anyway is all worth...cuz is end of 1st trial...
Hooray....
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me & daniel didn't talk much...
sitting there....nth else 2 do...
Ingnoring here..
haha....
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2molo is history & math paper 1....
Can use calculator....
YEAH!!!!!!
My eyes....r so tired......
Nex wk EXCEL...
Goverment test paper...
FOR PMR....
Got study...
HAHA....
~Sayanora.....

extreme moodswings......HAIZ....

2008-07-24T00:23:00.000-07:00

usually i dun talk abt moodswing alot...
But this time....Menstural came a few days b4 trial...
hate it....
I cant pay freaking attention if menstrual comes...
Hate it.....
This sat is BI2, SN1 & MA2....
Ouch...
All subj in eng on 1 day...
*Beep*
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Hate it...But now got study....
7 subject:
Math
Malay
English
Science
History
Geography
Living skill...
HAIZ.....
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Trial This Saturday....

Stupid Menstrual....on wednesday.....

2008-07-22T23:59:00.000-07:00

Juz came....
Cant believe...
How come my menstrual came b4 trial???
HOW ABT after trial??
2 l8....
HAIZ...
Moodswings really affected me...
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Im feel kinda left out sometimes...

Daniel wasn't there 2 talk abt dancin wit me...
He is de 1 who help me find my talents...
Dancing...
I enjoy it as much as his does..
But sometimes issues in my life stop me...
wat can i say....
juz move on....
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I nvr feel distracted in my life....
I feel so useless....
HAIZ...
Back 2 study.....
---------------------------------
Trial tis saturday....

Tuesday........Lyk Wat de heck???

2008-07-21T22:48:00.000-07:00

I usually nvr get so moody......owes a hyper type...
but end up.....Im being a stupid & idiotic person doin nth...
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Moodswings seriously hit me hard 2day...
Stupid KH...Lazy 2 do my homework...
But end up finish in time...
It has been 2 dys no electricity in my homeroom...
So stupid....
Anyway...gtg...study
study hard & study smart...
4 tis wk trial...
HAHA...
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TRIAL THIS WEEK......

Monday...afternoon....

2008-07-21T01:22:00.000-07:00

2nd time bloogin...cant study at all...
Moodswings really affect me greatly......
I need meditation...
HAIZ....
I feel lyk im a prisoner of something...
Hate???Love????
Dun know...
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Y is my mind owes feel with negatif thoughts???
I feel so restless.....
HAIZ....
How am i suppose 2 face de trial....
My powers r not ready....
Fantasy living owes makes me blieve...
they exist....
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TRIALS...THIS WEEK....

Pissed on monday...H8 it....

2008-07-20T22:44:00.000-07:00

Ever wonder of a good morning start....
And & owes came back home wit a smile??
I dun think so...
Here's my story....
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No idea why im so pissed....
When Daniel came up & talk 2 me...
Im more focusing than actually talk 2 him...
I know he looks lyk a happy good lucky person...
But deep inside his heart....
Lies a big scary scar....
Which haunt alot...
Im hv been total ignore him a few times...
---------------------------------------------------------
I kinda left out sometimes...
When he talk 2 her more...
I think thats feel lyk it when a person is kinda left out...
Anyway....
Moodswings owes happen 2 me...
Left out alot...
HAIZ...
But anyway...
I rather focus on studies than talk 2 my friends...
Although facin reality is hard but is lyk that...
Cant stand it...
H8 it...
HAIZ....
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THIS WEEK IS TRAIL!!!
ON SATURDAY....................

Best friday....

2008-07-18T07:45:00.000-07:00

My days r as usual...
Nth much... Juz stay back at skool...
doin nth...
not nth of cuz...
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Our skool got a mini concert...
n yet only seniors lyk 4S1 & 4S2....
Kena invited....
Hate them...
but yet ponteng class...moral....
haha
Slip from de back door....
teacher didn't c wat happen....
haha....
who...K's....
but yet de concert is so boring....
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back 2 story...I stay back...
Learn some new dance moves...
Cant do freeze & Handstand...
HATE IT!!!!
AAARRRRRGGGHHHH!!!!!
Daniel taught me a lot....since i met him...
my friend & sensei...
Haha....
Raining heavily...
thx God i bring slippers..
If not....
soaked lyk mad...
haha....
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go back home
dinner...bath.....went 2 vedablu...
COOKIES & CREAM...
My fav...
Haha....
sleep....
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....................

Borin Thursday.....

2008-07-17T01:23:00.000-07:00

Another boring day...

After sleepin at midnite really tires me off...
Sleep durin KH, & English class...
2 sleepy...
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Anyway, woke up 4:30am
U know de the things......
Head 2 skool.....
Skip....
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Daniel came up...talk...chit-chat....
Cheryl came by...chit-chat...
Im so sleepy end up sleeping on de table 4 50 min....
2 sleepy.....
By de time reach 7:00am....
the darn skool bell woke me up...
*I'll get u later u damn skool bell*
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KH class....
Mdm Lim Bee Hong can sometimes b scary....
She is girl's KH teacher...
SEGREGATION....
who K's....
Can switch places.....
ACCOUNTS really make me headache....
HAIZ......
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Next Arts.....
Mr Mohammad......We miss u Mdm Niti....
T_T
Anyway......Assignment is 2 design our own fonts...
Mine is easy.....Since Ivy is a plant.....Draw frame of ivy vines....
HAHA.....

Ivy (vines)....

Ivy (Flower)....
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RECESS....FISH CAKES....again....
--"
Anyway.....Tiring....decide 2 rest in de class....
Who k's....
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Lt8........English....
Dear Snow White didn't come 2 c her 45 dwarfs
HAHA....LOL....
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Maths....Revising....
Who K's
Mdm Vasugi a.k.a Strict Lady.....
dun lyk 2 scold ppl..
well..
who doesn't....
HAHA....
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Malay....
Mr. Idros a.k.a Soccer Fanatic......
HAHA.....
Read very fast.....
Cant hear him...
Always have a feather duster bhind his back...
Meant insinde de shirt....
LOL....
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Lastly Geo....Nothing much...
Juz correctin de Kertas Models.....
So lame....
Anyway...
is 4 PMR...
no choice....
HAIZ......
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Gone bac home....Sleep....
UNTIL 6PM....
OUCH.....
So sleepy...
mayb can study until midnite...
again....
haiz....
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cook dinner....disaster...
i'll nvr improve...
T.T....
study....
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Grab a midnite snack...
APPLE....
Im on diet...
HAHA....
Sleep...
ZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..............
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COUNTDOWN TRIAL........
10 DAYS............
HATE IT!!!!!!!!

Weird Wednesday......Who K's.....

2008-07-15T22:53:00.001-07:00

Another stupid day...

Woke up at 4:30am....No choice but 2 wake up...
My ass muscles r killing me...
OUCH!!!!!
Pack my skool stuff...Change 2 skool uniform.....
Breakfast....Samething....HAHA.....
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Reach skool.....Revise my History.....Resume wer i left off....
while memories my oral test....
HATE ORAL TEST.....
Daniel came up n talk 2 me....As usual......
Haha....
Cheryl (3AM2) needed help on de oral....
So both Daniel & I help her....
My head already explode when I hv 2 think important points...
*KA-BOOM*
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Classes start at 7:00am....As usual....
Science Class....
Mdm Pang Kee Ean a.k.a Sleeping Beauty...
[[LOL]]
Ottery (3AM1 class monitor) who is de 1 who call her tat name...
Dun noe y....
HAHA.....
Most of students talking...Ignoring de teacher...
OUCH.....
She is a lyk loud siren......mostly ppl wan 2 sleep cant snooze her off...
WAKAKA.....
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English.....Mdm Mary Kwong didn't come in...
Haiz.....3AM1 form teacher....
Mdm Mary Kwong a.k.a Snow White....
Another nickname by Ottey....
.............
--"
Oral test.....Pentaksir came......Tanya...(de christian musician in our class....)
Kena chosen by teacher.....
Dun know wat happen....
Who K's...
HAHA.....
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Recess......Recess......
*went 2 buy my food*...Friend fish cake & Curry fish cake....
Obsessed with fish....
LOL....
then went 2 bilik guru....
Play with a few teachers....No trouble...
HAHA.....
Fav past time during recess....
since sidang petang....
HAHA.....
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Moral.....
The minor subj......FORM4 & FORM 5??
COMPULSORY......
Ready 2 jump inside 2 de TOASTER....
HAIZ....
sry Mdm Dayang.....bz drawing here.....
HAHA......
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Lastly Geo......
Mdm Carol a.k.a Pancaragam teacher....
Annoying voice...but funny....
The boys lyk 2 play with her alot...
U know y??
Cuz is "WORLD WITHOUT 3AM1"
LOL.....
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Skool over....Wait 4 my dad...
*Wer de heck did my dad go??*
NVM....
HAHA....
Saw Mallory...(Daniel's friend)
Chit-Chat....

Saw Daniel came by....
Chit Chat 4 awhile...
Talk abt FORM 4 subjs.....
Im now officially act lyk a nerd....
Oh NO!!!
AAAAAAAAHHHHH........

Saw my dad came....Went home...
Study.....Homework....
Cook dinner 4 my family...
Lyk a disaster...
Study....
Need my water....
*wer is my bottle??? need 2 drink water....*
Sleep...ZZZZzzzzzzzzzz.......
2molo another day...

Study while blogging...Total distraction....--"

GEOGRAPHY....So bored.....Read lyk wan 2 explode....
My bottle....Found it...HAHA...

-----COUNTDOWN TRIAL-----
11 Stupid Days....

my usual life routine.....

2008-07-15T01:56:00.000-07:00

Wake up at 4:30am.....
Juz wan 2 snooze my alarm....
Breakfast as usual....
Change 2 skool uniform...
Head 2 skool....
sometimes, morning is cool....get 2 c the beautiful sight of sunrise....
Vivian owes nvr finish her homework....
HAIZ....
Daniel came up and talk to me...While I always lookin at the sunrise.....
We talk almost everything....(He is a good friend)...
His dancings r awesome....Wave, Freeze Krumping....Wow....
Is true.....
But anyway.....life total getting borin than ever....
On malay lesson...stupid oral......
2molo...english....h8 it.....
after skool...head straight home....
study.......everthing....
try to study as much...as i can 2 score minimum 5As....
move on with my life...

TRIAL COUNTDOWN.......
11 DAYS......